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Life has been really boring these days. The same routine over and over again over each and everyday just pissed me off and mainly why the reason I haven been blogging lately. This kind of life just somehow makes me look forward more to starting school and living in singapore next year. Not that the life now is bad or whatsoever, ok I got to admit I need not worry about homework or getting readings or understanding the lectures or what, but is not the life I want!! I got no freedom and need to work as if I'm already like 25 or 26 years old.

Come on, I am just a normal 19 years old girl who wasnt supposed to face customers all by her own and persuade customers and customers to buy houses or condos that cost over hundreds over thousands dollars and sounds as if I have already been in the society for a damn long period and bought a few properties myself. Actually I just want to be a normal 19 years old girl, who can go out with friends whenever I want and do things that I like and have all the freedom and need not need to worry about things like money. But now, going out like twice or 3 times per month seems too much and every time I want to go out I need to seek permission from everyone in the family (except my bro of course since he's going out almost everyday), and they will say like "What?! go out again?", "Your sis didnt go out so often how come you go out again?!", "Go out for what? Meet friends? I thought you just meet them?" (assuming I only got a few friends..!!), " Meet friends? in the next coming ten or 20 years, I see if you still meet your friends then!", blah blah blah.

But when my sis go meet her friends which is like twice a Year or so, they encourage it like nobody ever does so. I seriously wonder why she can do that as in meet her best friends twice a year or ok sometimes 3 times. Well I do know she need to work for my parents when my parents have some diffculties in their job a few years ago, but now everything is done and okay, and is time for her to go out and find a job, find a boyfriend, and meet her friends for goodness sake. but she just dont seem to take it to heart at all and as time passes, I also just forget about going ard threatening her she's no longer young, no longer 20 years old.

Pardon me for all the above whines, I'm just getting sick of this kind of life, and the BEST thing of all is that 'there's nothing much I can do about it', til well maybe I start sch and move out. Then maybe I can be a more free person. I of course cherish my family now, but not the kind and style of life now and the kind of treatment I am getting. I it just sucks all the way.

Uni life has been really stressful to my friends out there, be it overseas or local unis, and maybe they are complaining about "who says uni life is fun" and all about that. Well just like what dear Jiefang said just now, "maybe we are still transiting". Life definitly, and hopefully will get better.

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Just bought "The devil wears Prada" and a chinese book "收到你的信已经太迟了". Hoping this two books will accompany me through the boring periods at work. Meetups with old good 38 com just jolted me that in the midst of the boring life I am going through now, there's still warm moments around with friends. And Talks with all my dearies online, sending emails, or just a causal talk or a show of need to go out with me just really warms my heart. And I guess that's just the only thing that kept me going in this mundane life and tell me what friendship really is. Friendships are definitely not built on frequents outings (of course if can that will be better!) but more on the heart, whether they are really sincere in being your dearies friends.

Abby, I guess you are still trying to adapt yourself to the studying life once again and all the new stuffs coming up and of cuz your new hostel life. Hold on ok, And i really miss you too. Didnt get to talk to you online often but I'll always be there! Just drop me an email whenever you are feeling low or whatsoever!! or just pop me an MSN conversation!! hehee. Miss and love you too!!

Times sometimes flies, but to me now, though it still flies, but still not fast enough.

P/S: I would like to make my 3 months plan extended to 5 months. hehe. Whoohoo. (: