T O K Y O zen

Friday, January 27, 2006

Just read mengsy's blog. Haha To Mengsy: dont ever think I dont read your blog ar. I always do. haha Anyway, I do understand why she's so pissed with her sister 'cause I share her sufferings too. Not that my sister always look down on me or what, but her nagggy-ness has the similar effect.

And somehow or another, maybe I am over-sensitive or what, she's seems to get whatever she wants in the house. Even my parents listen to her. Be it buying anything or doing anything or changing anything, my parents will ask her first. If she say cannot, means cannot. vice versa. I dont know when she's got this magical power I think ever since she got into Uni. yea maybe that's the power of gettting good results and get into Uni which then makes my parents feel proud of her.

I dont feel like elaborating the details which make me pissed here, in case maybe a few years or months later when i re-read my blog I will feel upset once more. ADDING ON, my dad hasnt been good to me too. Maybe he really feel that I am lazy and lousy or what-so-ever, I just feel that he dont really like me. Maybe he does, just that I didnt sense it. But I guess I know. But the thing is, I cannot see it from his actions. I know guys, esp Asian fathers, are not good at expressing themselves, so I make myself believe that he loves us, he dotes on me. But I cant see it. The problem is, I can see that he dotes on my sis ALOT. To scale it upon 10, he dotes on my sis on abt 9.5, but me.. maybe 5.5. Maybe I underestimated myself, but currently I feel that way.

I just feel so tired of giving in to them all the time, and it just urges me to write this down to vent my anger. I dont mind to be the one to give in, but everything got a limit. And currently, it reached my limit. But I guess it will go back to zero again tml, and I will continue to give in again.

Maybe that's life.

P/S: I feel much better after typing and telling Jiefang. She's right. When family problems occur, this is when friends come in. Thank dear and all my lovely friends. I cant imagine how to carry on without you all support. :)

Sunday, January 22, 2006

After a week-of-phone-less week, I finally got my phone and number back~! And I bought a new phone Nokia 6111 !! Is really cool and nice I think! And I swear I NEVER EVER going to let it get stolen again! hahah So guys please tell me your phone numbers cause I lost it all and I cant contact you all without the numbers!!! haha :)

Nothing interesting these days, just shopping around for new year stuff with my family lo! haha. And yea though I dont really looking forward to CNY, but I guess the only thing that excites me about CNY besides angbaos, will be wearing my new shoes and clothes. My clothes are not the main thing cause they are just simple ones. IS MY SHOES! I love it man, cause I am the one who buy it!!!! Haha

Time really flies. Or is there any other word to describe an action faster than "fly"? So fast 2006 is here. So fast January is ending. So fast Feb is coming. So fast the dying day will reach us soon. GOSH!!! 2006 may not start well for some of us, but I hope everything will turn out fine eventually. Lets just hope that the CNY will "wash" away the bad luck and in come all the goody luck!!!!!! :)

Smile everyone!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

A few days ago, on the 16th January of 2006, 04A51 is back in action!!!!!!!!

The feeling of getting back again with all the familar and close friends who share the same frequency and channel with you, will talk about everything and anything under the sun, those we will not give you a fake smile just because you spoke a cold joke but just tell you directly is not funny, those that will care from you from the bottom of their hearts and speak to you most sincerely, and of course those that updates you of the most WONDERFUL gossips!!

Meeting up at dinner, everyone sitting tgt just brings everyone back to all the breaks we had when we were in SAJC, sitting at the cafe, eat, talk, gossip, look around and gossip about other people, or just start our own laughing session which sets tables behind or infront of us just feel so irritated. haha that's us. that's 04A51!

But sadly, the old compound is gone. The familar place is gone. Good thing is, memories will never be gone! haha how come I sound so old?!?! haha I just feel great seeing my besties and lovely classmates again. love you all!!

I do hope that these kind of gatherings will continue til we grow old. The feeling will be great! Trust me! love.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Yesterday is the Friday the 13!

And something bad happened to me.

My handphone is gone.

Someone steal it!

I am so upset and unhappy. Firstly, I am angry because I am actually so careless to let the stupid-idiot pickpocket pickpocket me. Secondly, although my phone is quite an old model, but inside got a lot of my memories, esp of my JC life and also the photos and videos I took on Mayday's concert. Most importantly, I lost all the photos of all my budddies. and the contact numbers too.

My brother and sister kindly and nicely console me that "nevermind lo, next time be careful lo. buy a new one la. take this chance to po cai siao zai." My parents are not angry as well which I thought they will. But they took this chance to tell me that CNY is around the corner and so the stupid-idiot theifs are all back on action. so be careful in this period of time. Hai~

So anyone who's reading this, beware! at least for this period of time. I do not wish to see anyone to suffer from my situation. hai

*Wish*

I hope this is the last time something bad happen to me. really. Let 2006 be a nice and wonderful year for me!!!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I passed my driving theory test!!!!! on my first attempt!!!!! haha I am so super-duper happy la. Given the fact that I started studying for it 3 days before today, and slack like dont-know-what, I am satisfied le. Well you cant blame someone who just finished her A levels, though is like a few months ago thingy, but WHO got the mood to study right? haha

And another thing to be happy, I won the bet with my mother! Due to my lazy-ness and slack-ness, she's so sure that I am going to fail my theory test if I continue like this and we had a bet if I passed my theory test in the first attempt, she will pay for my rest of the course fee. hahah well, she meant to encourage me la. And is a good thing for me too! Yipeeeee!!! :)

Edit: somehow I wrote this on Thurday 12 January 2006 3.30pm but it appears to be on Wednesday. haha whatever.. hehee so happy!!

Monday, January 09, 2006

The starting of 2006 dont seems to be interesting to me. Does it hints that 2006 wont be interesting too? I hope not. Anyway, I just went to Singapore on last Friday to visit my auntie who lives there as well as a trip to accompany my mother to go shop for her CNY clothes. So my parents suggested staying over at my auntie's house on Friday night and shop the next day. I was not keen at all to go with them on Friday, reason being that I just dont feel like going out and I thought that it would be a not interesting gathering for me after all. But I guess lucky I did not "不听老人言，吃亏在眼前！"

My uncle brought us to this extremely nice restaurant to eat dinner. If I am not wrong, the name of the restaurant is 金玉满堂. The food is really nice there. Just that dinner alone I realised that letting my mother to force me to go with her is a right choice after all.

After that we went to walk around at Chinatown, which is the main purpose of my father's trip to Singapore. Although the rain do makes the 年货市场 a bit lonely and empty, at least it does have some CNY atmosphere somewhere around in the air.

The next day is a shopping day. After accompanying my mother to shop with my auntie at Tiong Bahru, we headed to suntec to shop. Oh we saw Fann wong at Tiong Bahru. She's really pretty I must say but she's not as tall as I expected her to be. Okay back to suntec. After my mum purchase her winter clothing for her Hokkiado trip on Feb, my sis and cousin plus me stay on in suntec to start our shopping. I am sad to say that after about 3 hours of shopping, I did not buy anything!!! I dont know le. Although I do feel like spending but there's nothing that let me feel like spending on it. Not even those that sparks my interest. Never mind, I still do hope that I can get my CNY shoes and clothes before CNY which is 3 weeks away. Gosh.

And I am going to have my driving theory test on this Thursday. So bless me friends! I do hope I will pass.... *nervous......

(Note: I have wrote some chinese characters in this entry. If you have any diffculty in reading those characters, just go to the menu bar in this window, go to VIEW, and go to ENCORDING and click on UNICODE. Then u can read it!)

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Oh is finally 2006!! To me, yesterday's countdown was not exactly exciting. Just stay at home with my family with no celebration. And we actually just watched the countdown celebration on channel 5 at 11.55pm. haha I am more attracted to the "Kang Xi Lai Le" show on channel U. It is just so funny. I just hope 2006 will be a much better and great year than 2005. haha

2005-- a year of mugging and mugging plus some fun with class and friends. It is not a really fantastic year to me, but definitely a year that I will remember. A year where I got to get closer with my friends and get to know more good friends, a year that I really realise the horrible and terrible A level that had make me feel so depressed and stressed, a year that ends my uniformed-life in school, a year that I had try out a lot of things that I hadnt try before... and much much more.

Anyway, yesterday besides being the last day of 2005, is also my first day of my driving lesson. I attended the theory lesson yesterday which is so boring that I almost dozed off. The reason behind it is not that the teachers are boring, just that they spoke in almost 97% Malay which I only understand about 2% or less. Lucky I can chose to take the English version of the test or else I guess I have to go to Spore to have my driving lesson. haha. I am going to have the theory test on 12th of January. Then think I have to go and attend another lesson on car parts I guess. Then after the Chinese New year, I will start to receive my training and hopefully with no failures in between the process, I may complete the whole course in March 2006! Bless me!

To Jackie and Kok Hsien, take good care of yourselves when you all are in army k? ahah I dont wish to see your names on the 10pm News. haha Just kidding. Just take good care of yourselves and we'll to meet up as often when ever you all are out! haha.

To all my other friends who are going to enlist into army sooner or later, take care too!! :)

To all dearie girl-friends, we shall meet up soon hopefull after school re-opens so that the streets wont be so packed!! love you all.

To abby, I had NEVER read your blog entry on the tag. I had NEVER. really.. and DONT tag me again! haha

To everyone

Happy New Year 2006!!