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Finally ended the 2 days super-duper busy daya at work as there is a launching at one of the projects my dad hold. Whatever it is, it finally ended...

I feel so sad and sorry that I always cant meet up with my friends, esp Yitshan and Jasline who have been asking me out since we graduate and we never meet up since then. Not that I dont want to meet them but time always seem not to match. Dearies if you are reading this, I really want to meet up with u all, I will try to make the arrangements soon ok?

And, I also haven been meeting up with my 38 com ppl la. Ever since my birthday? oh so sorry dears... I will go out with you all soon.. promise promise...

And also, my dearest class esp JIEFANG, who's flying off soon.. all the way to Canada. Although the thought that she's going to be there for years, maybe back once a year or something, makes me feel sad, but on the other hand, I feel great that she's going to fulfill her wish as well as my wish to pursue her studies overseas. Not that studying overseas is better or lousier or whatever, but the whole experience will be totally different and it does make a difference in our lives. So Jiefang dear, will meet up with you soon and Jia you!!! Will really miss you!! Miss me too!!! haha

I guess in my boring life I'm having, sms-ing to Tracy or Huangping during work has become one of my past-times. haha Whenever we feel bored, we'll start sms-ing each other and talk everything and anything under the sun. That feels real great. Even we dont meet up often, we still know what's going on in their lives. Friendships are this Great!!!!

Another thing I always do these days, is to go just go online and start to look at beautiful clothes. I guess that's a motivation to remind myself that I need to slim down to get into those clothes. haha is quite useful though. haha I just hope I can start controling my spending on shopping trips now. heehee.

Still bothering and confused about the job offer. Hai. Just get to know from my sis that my father has some little problems in his career and he's shorthanded. Just little little little little problems. But it seems like a hint that he wont agree in letting me to work elsewhere.

To "spice up" the problem, my sis said I might need to go to army next year January. Hai that means even if I'm allow to work 2 months later, I may only work for a few months. The thought of going into army somehow just pissed me off. Not that I cant endure the tough and work outs in the army, just that I think is super useless for me to go, when I cant even speak proper malay and listening to it is already a big problem, though really simple ones are okay....

I think my life is start to get screwed up... shit me. 2006 is just not my year.. feel so lousy...

Huangping got my a job at Western Union. But as my father is a one who's a typical Cancer father, hence I guess he's very protecting me, in fear I got cheated or scared that that's not my ideal job or whatsoever. But Of cause, banking may not be my ideal career in the future but with my qualifications now, I cant possibly go into any marketing departments of any company right?

I quite attracted to the job cause besides its easy job and easy money, it can help to give me some experience in the banking industry. So why not?? Since there's still a time away to me starting school.

Ok, I will try to persuade my dad. I understand I can always learn in his company but is always different in working in your parents company and working in other people's company. I just want to try....

Anyway, finally bought my can-go-to-work-cum-go-out bag. hehee. It seems just as similar as the one I wanted to buy online.

Pray. Wish all the best in me... and to all my friends: Uni life starting!!! Aren't you all excited??? (:

Time seriously need planning.. I guess I really got to do more meaningful things like reading. Haha I can always read when I'm bored at work!

Online shopping is fun!! But that needs a lot of discipline, 'cause before you know it, you could have spend a bomb online!!!! So actually, online shopping needs more discipline than going out to shopping. but nevertheless, I love both too. Well, who dont loves shopping???

And I hope I can go shooping with Jiesung and Kat on tue. I seriously need a bag to work and to go out or whateer... (:

Before I know it, July is going to end and August is coming soon.. real soon. I can forsee that I will be quite stress at the beginning of August.. I agreed with Huangping.. 2006 isnt my year.. hahaha must go pray pray in the temple that I got a bettter years ahead.. (:

I am seriously getting stupid-er....

I can actually forgot to wash away the conditioner that's on my hair when I was bathing and only realised it when I off my shower and touched my hair realising it how come is still SO WET!!!

And after washing off the conditioner, I could actually be so dumb to let the newly-bought-thus-heavy shampoo bottle to hit right on my leg....ouch~~~

See, alot of things can happen within a short period of time or a short event such as Bathing.....

I need to get a job seriously so as to move my brains... MOve.. Move brain...

Last friday chilling session at Kat's house was really a niceeee one!!! Long time no see friends, Kat Jiesung Minshan Mengsy and Sharon!!!! Although everyone is so tired from their daily work and school, I'm still glad that we can meet up!!

More this kind of sessions, girls!!! (:

I'm so bored.... cant get a job and nothing much to do.. nothing interesting ... hai hai hai please please introduce me a job man....

2006.. a year that's wasted and unlucky and boring and........... HAI i hope it will become better and better.....

Adding on...

I have been so bored that I keep going online and started my online-shopping spree... haha though I yet learn how to shop on myself, but with the aid of dearie Kathie, I bought some really nice and cheap stuffs!! I guess is really quite cheap and nice to shop online.. Gosh I do hope I will learn how in the shortest time! haha. see see, that's how bored I am....

Out of all the fairytales that I know since when I was young, I have the deepest impression on Cinderalla and The Mermaid.

I watched a series of versions of The Mermaid. Some end with happily-ever-after endings, but some end up with a sad endings. That's why, though I love the story, but it doesnt bring me smiles and sweetness as much as Cinderalla brings me.

On the other hand, Cinderalla will always be one fairytale that tells me all about prince and princess, palace, happy ending, and though it maybe quite amusing, it does help to bring some hope in life.

The life of Prince and Princess has always been all the girls' life-hope and dream. But as stupid as we know, is super impossible to happen in our lives, at least mine. But nevertheless, I'm still looking forward to my Prince.

Actually, I got so much to say, but I dont know how to say it, 'cause currently I'm not in the right positon to say anything. But that's one thing I'm sure, I have never lost hope in my life, even after so much has happen, and I believe and hope that my life ahead will be fill with colours and hope!!

Things I want to get at the end of the year:

1. Motorola V3i (the red-wine colour is damn cool!!! AND its functions too)
2. Beautiful clothes (provided I have successfully slim down a little by then)
3. Pretty shoes and nicee bags...
4. Maybe a trip overseas... emmm....
5. Shu Uemura UV under Base. (Is quite expensive if I'm not wrong so need to save up save up)

There's alot more.. but let me think first.. Emmmmmmm

I have learnt how to cherish the people around me, especially my family. You just need so much fate and effort to have your family, your one and only unique family with you. Regardless of their flaws or occasionally-fights-or-quarrals, they are still the ones who caare for you!!! (:

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I have been officially rejected by NTU!! haha I have long forsee the day I received the letter though still holding on to 0.1% that they MIGHT take me in. haha but I guess I have really get over it. Main reason being is not as a big thing or the only road that lead to the-everyone-supposed-good-future. There's always other roads for me, and they are not necessary bad ones! haha.
I have plan to take up a number of courses, language ones or computer or YOGA!! haha and if everything run smoothly, Huangping and I maybe taking up yoga lessons together!!!! (: I'm so looking towards it!!

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Been to the FAn Wei Qi's showcase yesterday at Hardrock Cafe with tracy!! Thanks to tracy that I got free tickets to the showcase, though later we found on that actually you can just buy her cd to get into the showcase..duh...

The showcase is really nice nice nice, and she's really pretty pretty pretty and she's so friendly friendly!!!!!! Her singing, no doubt, is excellent! It just sounds exactly like what you hear on radio or from her CD!! Gosh, ok I will let the photos say it all:

That's the host Mary and Fan Fan!!

She answer every ques you ask her!! And she never neglects anyone who's watching her!!

Just before my emotions going to get into me again, lucky Jean is there to bring me back to the reality. haha I fully agree to what she said, rather than feeling sad that I cant get into uni this year, why not use the time to attend courses like language courses or computor courses? haha All these will only benefit my future in the end. And who knows, when I enter SIM next year, I may handle the course better!!! haha Life is just so amazing and funny.

And I think through all these, I have learnt that actually although other people's opinion of you does matter (at least for me), but first of all is how you look at yourself. I have stop thinking that going to SIM means lousy, well I am and will be getting a degree as well!! Haha. I think confidence is all I need. And I am glad I'm slowly getting it.. step by step.. not yet though. heehee

I'm looking forward to studying, even til now. And I'm more looking forward to the experience I can get and things I can learn in this one year.

Please look over me.. and all my friends...

My life just started for 19 years... there's more to come....

You may be feeling angry now or at times...

or you may feel sad and troubled at times or now..(this pic is real ugly man gosh)

But eventually, you will be real happy again, Trust me!!!!! (: (:

Decided not to buy N70 now. Maybe in the future or something. 'Cause my aunt told me my plan going to end too at the end of the year. So maybe will then change phone by then. Who knows? There will be nicer and better phones that I like. haha

Ntu still no news. Hai. No hope. Looking for a job now. Wants to earn a lot of money so that I can spend and make my life more wonderful and exciting.

Shall really meet up with my friends soon. Miss them really. Miss shopping too!!!!!