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My aunt just called me this afternoon to ask me whether I want to buy N70 which cost only S$398. 'Cause she's changing plan so can buy phone at a cheaper price. I'm so tempted to buy 'cause a week before, I asked my uncle(whom is her husband) to check out for me whether there's cheap lobangs for N70. My uncle's N70 only cost him $400 plus plus I think, though is second-hand but plus a lot of other accessories.

But I barely bought my Nokia 6111 for a year. Ok almost a year. Should I change?? I so feel like changing. Cause N70 can store alot of songs and photos without worrying of no memory and keep transfering to computor using a bluetooth device.

Though I never regret buying Nokia 6111, 'cause is what I chose then and its small and nice design suits females the most, but as me being a 100%-listening-to-songs person, storing only 2 songs in the phone really doesnt do much to satisfy me. And the limited memory to store photos, I have almost treated my phone as my personal camera, cause I still dont have the money to buy a Good camera that I like, so of cuz the megapixal and memoy means alot.

But I'm scared that I'm like materalistic?????!!!!!!!

Gosh what should I do.....

And my sis think I shouldnt buy it cause she thinks I'm still a student or a future-becoming student. So there's no need to buy such an expensive phone. Hai. She still think I'm a little girl le. how? Why dont I have the power to buy something that I like?

Should I buy??

Anyway, I haven receive any news from NTU. But think not much of a hope also. HAI....

you live for your own life, own future.

Easier said than done.

sometimes, life is just not under control. at least not in your hands.

you just got to give in and pretend.

no matter what happen, you like it or not.

I look forward in taking control of my life. I decide my future.

'Cause eventually, I'm the one leading it.

But now,

I'm not.

I want to travel around!! Feel so like going around, expose myself more to the other part of the world. I want to go Taiwan!!! Anyone want to go with me? shall ask Jiesung more about Taiwan. Heheee

I want to learn yoga too. Dont know why, suddenly got the interest. I hope it wont be a 3-min thingy. hehee

Jia you my friends. Guess is about one month more time to uni life!! I'm sure you all will enjoy it!! (:

Watched the "Golden Chicken" on Channel U yesterday night. Inside the movie, the female character said "凡事都是先苦后甜。 香港也是先苦后甜的。“ This sentence just strikes me. Maybe my life is also all about 先苦后甜.

Jean told me last night too, maybe I'm still reluctant to let go. There's a whole lot of unis out there in the world. And the one year doesnt really matter. When everyones graduates, is the same for everyone!!!

Somehow everytime I met any trouble, Jean will always give me a ton lot of advices which really help. Even though she's far away at Melbourne, I can still feel her encouragement and care. Maybe that's what friends are for. We may not meet everyday or very often, but whenever any one of us are in trouble or in need of help, they are there!

What abby said is right too. More exposure, more things done, I just hope I wont lost track and lost in touch with all my friends.

Still in a period convincing myself about what I'm going to face in the coming future and the different path I'm taking from everyone. Maybe I'll still feel unfair why do I need to go through stuffs that others need not go through. Maybe I'm still blaming myself. Maybe...

But I'll be fine. I'm quite sure about it, 'cause no matter what life got to move on. I need to take control of my life. Who knows, in 10 years time, when I look back I maybe glad that I go through all these to make a stronger me.

Feel so like talking to someone. But no one's online. Guess they are busy or sleeping or watching World cup bah.

Think through quite alot today. About what should and can do during the one year while waiting for admission to SIM. That's of course if I cant get into NTU, which I seriously and honeslty think is very likely.

Thought of getting a job at SIA becomme a air stewardess, but I'm too fat. So need to go slim down first. Thought of working at Mediacorp, but I haven apply yet and I'm not sure if my parents allow.

Maybe I will go serve my national service during the period. Let it done and over with it. Hopefully I will still be in one good piece when I come back.

But I still feel bad of lagging everyone by a year. It just seems like I'm slow... Well maybe I am still thinking very traditionally. How I hope I can study with my friends.. But Life is just like that.

Maybe my life is just filled with downs. All that's my life.

I'm in no mood to do and write anything now.

Just learnt from my mum that NUS rejected my appeal.

HOW SHITTY...

Why is my life like that?? SO in a mess....

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Today went to SIM to submit my application BUT!!!!!!!!!! When everything is settled.. the docs submitted... THEY TOLD ME THE ADMISSION IS CLOSED!! GOSH why they didnt tell me when I called to ask and when I checked online???? hai... I'm so lost now.. once again.....

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE... ntu or nus please take me in......

THen meet up with kat at BP to eat lunch. And she bought me a lucky cham!! I hope it do helps me in getting into UNi....

Thanks KAT!!! And your hair is nice!!! REAlly....... (:

I'm missing my classmates and all my friends... I so look forward to studying and moving to Singapore to stay!!! Jiefang and Minshan.. WHEn's our CHALEt?? hehe ehee (:

Edit: I AM not going overseas to study. I am just going to apply for SIM's course which is awarded by RMIT uni, is the same degree I'm getting as those who went over australia to study, and so why bother to spend so much to go there and I dont have the money to go there. haha yea.. sorry for mislead you all.. hehe.. dont worry, you all will still see me ard fan-ing you all.. hehe

Okay, so I decided to study RMIT uni's bachelor of business(marketing) if I cant get into local unis. after a day of thinking.

Life is just like that. I agreed to abby, studying mass comm alone doesnt help in my future career. And I can still go to comm-related jobs if I study marketing!! And I can do more jobs than just comm-related ones!!

So, life just so unpredictable. Lets hope I got accepted by local unis.

Life's just about not getting what you want.. but everything happens for a reason.. RIght? (:

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Finished watching the show "It started with a kiss". Is nice!! But I prefer the last few epsiodies.. Love is just so sweet!! I'm looking forward to my one...

I'm lost again.

Told my dad about the course I wish to take if I enter SIM. 'Cause I'm gonna apply soon, in case my appeal fails.

And un-expectedly, he actually sort of disagree with me to study there or rather the course. As the course requires high school fees, but I am really interested in that course. Of course if I can enter ntu or nus that will be better, but if not, since I'm going to study there of course I will choose the course I'm more interested in.

But sadly, he said that it will going to cost a bomb but getting a not very well-known uni cert. Well, is awarded by university at buffalo, state university in new york. Okay, not very well-known but since it is being taught in Singapore it should be recongized at least here right?

That's no the main point. He even said after spending so much money to get a cert, eventually I will come out at most work a few years and get married then. I infer from this statement as "Then why bother to study so costly??"

My heart breaks. He goes on saying I should study hard the moment I study in Singapore. And I should think of what I want to do ever since in Secondary school.

I did! Or else I wont be here! He just thinks that I dont think of the future. Maybe he still thinks that business is everything. I can only like business. NO!! I do like arts too.. in fact, communication studies is the one that I wish to pursue if I score in A levels. But he dont know all these. And started blaming me for everything.

I guess he's unhappy with me because he wanted me to study real estate, but I refused and told me I'm not interested. Is my own life and future and I dont hope to regret in the future in leading a life that belongs to my parents and not me.

Then he wants me to find any colleges in msia to study. Business... He let my sis chose what she wants.. just because her grades are good. But have he think of what I want? Being the youngest are not always good. All the hopes from the parents are not pinned on you and you will not get the most of what you want. Maybe he wants me to just find a job now.. no point in studying anymore.

So, I guess I'm just gonna start finding ways to come out with the school fees, maybe bank loans or something, and hoping to find some way to earn my own daily expenses. But the best way of all will be accepted by ntu or nus.

Why do I got all this? He's always one who likes to learn and encourage ppl to study. But why? To his own daughter, he's not willing to suppport her decision? Am I just so insignificant to him?

This is my birthday cake!!-- orea cheese cake with browine if I'm not wrong...

This is the room 79 with all my balloons and hsien at the corner and Wilbur pan behind who kept smiling throughout the night... he's not tired at all!!!

This is the table where my cakes and tibits and drinks are.. ok nth special though...

Okay, that's ugly me and the birthday cake and balloon and emm some drinks infront..

And midnight kbox-ing is really one that needs alot of energy to do so.. BUt singing with friends and singing 8 hours is fun though!! But I guess no more in a few months ahead I guess..

Started to watch e zhuo ju zhi wen after hp's great recommdendation!! Not bad.. still watching... And lastly, I shall end off with the photo grab from minshan.. hehee... is nice!!

That's my dearest abby the always smiling-and-sporty-girl and dearest jiefang-with-the-brightest-smile-and-going-off-to-canada-to-study

I hope my appeals will be successful.... and I'm quite looking towards Studying!!

A song to all my besties!!!---

范玮琪-- 一个像夏天一个像秋天

词:姚若龙 曲:陈小霞

　　第一次见面看你不太顺眼

　　谁知道后来关系那么密切

　　我们一个像夏天一个像秋天

　　却总能把冬天变成了春天

　　你拖我离开一场爱的风雪

　　我背你逃出一次梦的断裂

　　遇见一个人然后生命全改变

　　原来不是恋爱才有的情节

　　如果不是你 我不会相信

　　朋友比情人还死心塌地

　　就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰

　　你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句

　　如果不是你 我不会确定

　　朋友比情人更懂得倾听

　　我的弦外之音 我的有口无心

　　我离不开Darling更离不开你

　　你了解我所有得意的东西

　　才常泼我冷水怕我忘形

　　你知道我所有丢脸的事情

　　却为我的美好形象保密

This was the seafood platter for 2 Huangping and me ate at fish and co.... tasty tasty...

This was the ice cream we ate at Gelare.. too sweet I think.. Swensens' ones are still better..

Pretty Hp and me!!

10 June (my birthday!!)

Jiefang Kissing me!!!

Hp and me again! We become photo freaks whenever we go out. haha

oh no.. so shy!!!

More photos coming up on my birthday surprise by Vien, Hsien and Jackie! Whoohoo....

I love you all.

Our fried fish with muffin with side dishes!!

The side dishes!!!

For more pictures please proceed to Huangping's blog...

I guess I can be Kenny R.' spokes-woman... haha Pay me please Kenny..

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I got a feeling my appeal to NTU wont be successful. I dreamt yesterday that I got into NTU successfully.. and they say dreams are opposite of reality.. well well well..

This was the meal I had with Jackie and Kokhsien a few weeks back where we went to Marina square to eat Kenny Rogers after our kbox-ing.. IS really nice 'cause I finally try their ribs!!

More photos... on the meal....

Bird's eye view..

Quater chicken!!

Look at the ribs and Maraconi & cheese!!

Yesterday, went to Marina square for the second time with Huangping for shopping and lunch. Before that we went to SIM to take the various forms. And which after that we stupid-ly took the wrong bus to Marina square and sit on the bus til the bus driver ask us to alight. haha THen we took cab from where we alight to marina square and is only a S$3.80 cab... Ok I admit I can only travel to places with MRT.. other places I can only take cab..

And again, we had Kenny Rogers for lunch!!

Have been watching 我叫金三顺. Is quite a nice show. Well, maybe the size and all that of the female character reflects myself. (though not all of it!!)
And after watching the show, the feeling of getting in love comes back... after for a like I think a few months. Wow.. Well I'm looking forward to the feeling again. It feels great to search for love again!

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Going to appeal online Tml, after my dad helps me draft out the reason for appeal. Though I wrote one, but is still better for him to guide me through. Whatever it is, I just want to try my best in the appeals and so even if I got rejected, I wont regret in the future!

Also going down to sajc to get my cert and getting the review from mr peh which I ask him to write for me. THank you Mr peh! (: And think also going down to SIM to get the application forms.

And hopefully if got time, I want to go shopping cause is GREAT SINGAPORE SALE.... haha lets think about it huangping! (:

June is here.. will it be a wonderful and eventful month?

Finally some light after losing my way in the big jungle. Finally some stars after the clouds. Finally some sunlight from the heavy rain.

Besides appealing, I'm still going to apply for SIM.

I seriously feel ashamed of myself. I have always think that SIM is a lousy school, But I am certainly wrong. Is just that people dont know them. In fact, the courses they provide are real good, and some even covers more than those provided by the local unis. SIM is really not a bad school, but just because they are private, and their comparative more expensive school fees, people think they are not good.

I'm not saying all this because I may enter SIM.

Of course, I dont wish anyone to look down on me or others who enter SIM.

I really wish to thank Jiefang, Mengsy, WanTing, Tracy, Abby and all who hold my hand, slowly guide me out of the jungle, the clouds, the rain, and accompany me when I lost all my confidence and courage. Is you girls who make me buck up and realised that the world doesnt only includes studying and aiming for local unis, there are always other paths to be taken! I really have a square-box mind in the past, but fortunately, with my wonderful friends, I think "out of the box"!

Quoting from Jiefang, going through all this made me a more strong and independent person. Obstacles in life do help someone to grow.. faster... (: (wow, a long-time-no-see smile!)

To all those who showed care and concern for me for this period of time, really thank you.
To all those I have been troubling you all with all my negative comments and sms-es, Sorry and lastly still thanks.

I love you all.