Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I'm looking forward to Thursday, as it may change me life then. But is gonna take a long period of time. I dont know if I can perserve through this period but I will try my best.I keep on thinking of the type of life that I may get when I get into uni and stay in Singapore. I hope it will be fun.... The frequent meet-ups with friends just excities me and of cuz studying...
Sometimes I just wonder how can one be so lucky to have things that everyone hopes to have. And she doesnt need to work esp hard or perserve real hard or gone through alot of things to get all these. It just seems so easy and natural for them. How jealous am I. Life is just good for them and bad for me.
Sometimes I just missed the days listening to FM 933 and doing homework at the same time. And Jackie and I will sms in to 933 to see if our sms will be read out.
Sometimes I just missed the sch-ing days whereby everyday though packed with lessons but just so happily as long as friends are with you and everything seems so simple and easy.
Sometimes simple and funny talks with friends just bring a smile to me.
Sometimes I feel like crying when I think of Vivien, whom I have not meet up for a damn few months, 'cause I just miss her too much.
Sometimes I just feel so lonely when I think of Jean, though we do chat online but she's still faraway in Melbourne but the thought that she's enjoying herself there makes me happy again.
Sometimes I just feel like joining my friends overseas.
Sometimes I just dislike myself for landing myself in the current situation.
Sometimes I just hate myself for being such a coward and no determination.
Sometimes.
Tracy once told me when I met up with a situation concerning with my dad, " Haven you try rebelling against your parents?" Yea, til now, not that I remb of. Maybe I'm too guai. Not that I'm encouraging others to do so, but sometimes I just want to be on my own and try things out. They may be angry, but I hope they do understand too. well, I'm not doing some bad stuffs right?









