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Friday, May 26, 2006

What's wrong? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with my life?

It just seems like I cant get anything right. I just feel so lost and helpless and lonely and suddenly the world becomes so big and I am lost in that tiny corner whereby no one finds me and I just seems so meaningless.

The life I am looking forward to just seems so much further away from me. It seems almost impossible to accomplish that kind of life.

Maybe it has been wrong since from the start. I cant help but cry, I no longer have the energy to tell myself that everything will be fine and it will turn out fine in the end. I no longer have the ability to tell myself I can do it, cause I cant. the truth is denying me, my life is denying me.

Just end it. I dont want this. It may be nothing, just a small thing which doesnt play a large part in your life. But to me, it matters. at least for now.

Whatever it is, there is only me to be blamed.

Let me let it out. Is been in there for a long time. very long time.